O Holy One, Keeper of tears and witness to injustice, I come to You not with answers, but with ache.
I am tired, Lord. Tired of the cruelty masked as law, Tired of silence that blesses oppression, Tired of watching Your children, queer, brown, immigrant, poor be trampled underfoot while the empire sings its anthem.
I do not belong in this world, not the way it is and maybe that is my prayer.
Let me not belong. Let me remain a misfit of mercy, a holy dissenter, a thorn in the side of systems that crucify Your love daily.
Make my loneliness a sanctuary of courage. Make my grief a well of living water.
Help me remember that You, too, were despised and rejected, a man of sorrows, familiar with grief. You, too, were undocumented, imprisoned, executed by the state.
So let me not numb myself, but feel. Let me not turn my eyes, but see. Let me not give up, but rise.
Make my soul stubborn and soft, bold and broken, a mirror of the Gospel that dares to say: Love is still stronger.
Be near tonight, O God, to every aching heart. Be near to mine. And in the quiet, remind me: I am not alone. I am not alone. I am not alone.
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